The First Cut Is The Deepest

I came across 'Everybody Hurts' by Tony Parsons in this months edition of Elle magazine. It discusses male heartache and how they deal with it. It's a beautiful and emotive piece of writing. It's very important to be at this moment in my life. I especially love this bit:

"A I sat there with my own new love, two tables down, did my eyes brim with loss and yearning? No. Though between you and me, that was how I felt inside. I knew that this girl I have loved- and still did- would spend the night in the arms of that other man.... I knew it was over and everything that we once shared would never come again. It hurt like hell. I felt like sobbing all over my sweet-and-sour pork. But I acted as though I did not give a damn. Mote than this, even though my heart felt like it was being pulled out with a pair of rusty pliers, I acted as though we has never even met. On my way out of the restaurant, I even paused by their table to chat with a pretty waitress. And that is what male heartache looks like. It resembles something that has died... Men do not feel less than women. A breaking heart hurts just as much in the male chest as in the female. We cover it up, we bury it deep."

The most poignant part "Get it off your chest and then get it on with someone else."

The article ends:

"Ultimately, that is why a man tries not to cry when he has a broken heart. Even when he is alone. It is not because he feels nothing. It is because he feels everything."

I adore this article and will treasure it forever, for once, a slightly hopeful insight into the male psyche.

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Image by Banksy.
Because when a girl gives away her heart, she'll never get it all back.

Goodbye Summer

See you next year

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My Dad's Infamous beach; My Sanctuary.

It's been a while

Sorry I have been absent since travelling.

Life has been rather hectic, I've been undergoing work experience at Bestseller Retail Limited (the company that owns the brand Vero Moda & Jack&Jones). Here I have been working with Sally McEntyre, head of VM and Marketing, effectively my job role has been Marketing Assistant. It;s been fun! I've learnt quite a lot and been given a fair bit of responsibility.

So now the next lot of work experience... London Fashion Week, working for Look Magazine!! This was a lot of fun, we spent all day dressing the models and then we went to the aftershow party with the liked of Dianna Vickers and Shayne Ward. Then off for drinks in London and the exclusive aftershow.



Next weekend I am working for 1927 at their London Fashion Weekend stand again which should be lots of fun. For now, I will make a trip back to Nottingham for my final year at University in my new home. <3

V Fest

So I have just come back from one of the funnest weekends, ever!! V Fest in Weston Park added and extra element to my summer!

After a 5 hours spent in a car when the journey take an hour max from home, we arrived at the carpark!... In the rain! So we unloaded our stuff, my friend Anthony kindly lent me his trolley (I thought this was a kind move, however, the trolley was a paper trolley, thus heavy and VERY hard to manoeuvre!!!). Anyway, we all loaded the trollies and off we went, or, so we thought!! I couldn't manoeuvre my trolley, it was tipping it down andd alll of us had so much stuff it was horrible! In the end we admitted defeat, I sat with half the stuff while Sar and Heidi went to begin to pitch the tents and then come back for me. I sat in the rain, mac on, on my trolley, getting soaked. I had no phone and so it was literally a waiting game (and a hoping one, that they remembered where they'd left me). They found me, after a significant amount of time passed. I literally saw about 300 people pass and everyone looked at me oddly, ha!! Probably wondered why some girl was sat getting soaked, hood up looking like a giant condom quite frankly!!

We set up tent, had a stongbow and life was good.... UNTIL Bear called, and we couldn't find where she was park!! The weather had dried up by now. After an hour of walking and hunting we found her. Hit camp and all was good!! :)

The weekend was filled with so much... and it'll bore you!! Bit my favourite acts were Prodigy, Chase+Status, Ellie Goulding and Paulo Nutini. All were sensational for different reasons!! I can't wait to get my ticket for next year.

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A video showing the smallest snippet of us and our adventure ♥

The End

So that's it, my America adventure is over. I can't believe it, it's weird it feels like it's flown by but then I think about everything that we've done in a month and it's unbelieveable. I'm so proud of us and what we've done, we've been so brave and overcome so many hurdles, we always come out smiling.

I feel this month has taught me a lot about myself as a person, what I want to do, what I want to see and what matters and what doesn't. There is so much more to life than day to day routine and there is so much more to the world than the places I live, infact, than England.

I've got the travelling bug now... I am not going to be able to stay in England for long, I think my next destinations will be Australia and Thailand.. perhaps a cheeky visit to China to see my half sister too.

Travelling is bloody scary, to stand in the middle of a city not knowing where you are sleeping that night with your whole life on your back.... but it's equally liberating, spontaenous and fun. I have had the time of my life and I want to say a massive thankyou to Sophie and Maria for giving me and unforgettable and incredible experience that filled a month of my life and will never, ever be forgotten. ♥

San Francisco continued...

So we went to the baseball game in Oakland where we saw the Athletes play! It was fun although we kind of needed someone to explain the rules to us!!

The next day we got up and went straight to the cable cart stop as you had to wait about an hour to get on them, we took the cable cart all the way to fishermans warf, on the way we passed the windiest road in the world, its so pretty. It was freezing so we stopped at a coffee shop for a hot chocolate. Then we got the bus back to Union Square where we spent the remainder of the day shopping!!

This was our last night so we decided we'd go out for a really nice meal, we went to John's Grill where we had amazing food and wine and they had a live Jazz musician playing!! For dessert we headed to our favourite diner, Louis!!

On our last day in San Fran we just chilled out, brought presents and went to lunch at... you guessed it, Louis!!

The flight home was pretty horrendous as I haven't been very well the past week and appear to have a bit of a temperature so I was boiling hot on the plane, coughing and restless, me and Soph didn't sleep at all, Maria, of course did as she has learnt to sleep anywhere now!!

I was so glad when I arrived home at 4.30pm yesterday after not sleeping or washing for like 30 hours!!